This last year and a half has been an intense time of transformation for me. I know many others are feeling it too. This is what I call a dark night of the soul. It’s a time when we are required to face life’s challenges like warriors because we can tell that something big is happening. If we have the courage, we go deeper into our pain than ever before. I have had to face this dark night a few times in my life. Each time, I realized I would never have chosen the changes, but in hindsight, I am very grateful for them.
In this last year, I saw several red flags in relationships and work. I looked fearlessly at what I was being shown. I looked carefully at my emotional triggers and saw where my growth was encouraged. When the veil was lifted, I couldn’t “unsee”. I could not go back to sleep. I could not deceive myself or anyone else any longer. Being honest with myself and with others can be messy but it is necessary. I have experienced a period of grief because a version of myself, the life, and the friends I thought would be with me for life fell away. This time is holy and a sacred passage through the depths of my being. I’m listening for the still small voice within my heart. I’m clearing the emotional carnage. I’m letting go of what no longer makes sense for me. I’m watching for the synchronicities. I’m living one day at a time. My heart is my compass.
It feels like death, but wait, it also feels like resurrection and rebirth.
Destruction of the old is simultaneously creating the new. I feel very vulnerable but I no longer fear this transition.
Big Hugs to all who are struggling through their dark night of the soul. Treat yourself well. Walk in nature. Talk to the unseen love that surrounds you. You will be heard. Ask for the help you need. Listen for your internal wisdom. Journal and paint away your emotions until the waters calm. You are not alone. The whole world is changing with you.
I love you. ❤️
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